dedicating my summer to the gym and working out. im not gonna let you ruin my summer.

I was looking forward to summer because of one thing and one thing only. I was looking forward to lay in the park with you at night, just gazing at the stars. I promised myself that i would tell you how i truly feel about you there and then. I’ve always pictured of doing this with someone special, but never really got the chance to do it. But, since youre gone, all i can say is.. FUCK SUMMER.

I won’t blame you for what has happened recently. In all honesty, this is all my fault. You gave me sooo many chances, and i was just to stupid to realize that. This always happens to me, I never really see whats going on in the present because im too busy looking at the future. Then, when you realize that, that person is gone, you start to think about the past and come to reality that this is all YOUR fault.

I keep thinking this is all a dream, and this isn’t really happening to me right now. You moved on, and here i am, waiting for you to come back. It’s funny how i usually get through things with a fake smile on my face.. but this time, i can’t do it. I never fell for someone so hard, and having to see that person move on and love someone else tears me apart. All the times we’ve had i wanted to tell you my true feelings towards you but i was afraid. I was afraid that if i would to ever tell you how i truly felt, you and i would tear apart if we would ever to have break up. I don’t want that. I want for us to be together i really do, but i don’t want to lose you if we break up. I just can’t believe this is all happening in such a short period of time. I just wished i told you how i truly felt earlier, no matter the outcome.

How fucking stupid. You wake up one day and that one person decides to get up, and walk right out of your life. What do you do ? Nothing. You just go on with your day and pretend like it doesn’t bother you when it does.

so youre gonna lead me on and now just completely stop talking to me? have fun with your “boo,” when you get your heart broken, just know that i wont be there for you when you need a shoulder to cry on..

… who the fuck am i kidding? ill always be there for you.

shouldve skipped this class to go chill at my bro’s house.. i need someone to talk to.

girls who try so hard are such turn offs. seriously.